Ahead of time, I plan on being in bed the day after chemo (sure) but I also imagine all the things I will get done. In particular, I always seem to think the day after chemo will be a good day to get writing done.
And it always, turns out that, in reality, I can't concentrate long enough to read a book, knit on an easy project or even answer emails with any coherence.
And I am always disappointed in myself.
I know that some women work right through chemo treatments but I am not 'some women.' I am me.
And I have to stop beating myself up about it.
And I need to learn to lower my own expectations of myself. It's just so weird to remember, when I am feeling so well and healthy most of the time, that just a few hours of treatment will make me feel this crappy.
I did manage to read (and comment on) two great posts at BlogHer today. Check them out and let me know what you think:
I Want To Like Eckhart Tolle's Work. I just Can't Get There From Here by Mata H.
Paying The Price Of Vet Care - How Much Is Too Much? by lauriewrites